The Soul Searcher
As the name ‘Diary of a Soul Searcher’ suggests, I am on a quest. I am searching for experiences that enrich my soul and make me feel blessed to be alive.
Not only have I set this blog up primarily to document said quest for fulfilment and help to keep friends and family up to date whilst I am away, but I would also like to inspire others to start soul-searching. When was the last time you really sat down, took a look at your life and asked yourself if you were REALLY happy?
I would love my writing to allow me to connect to a broader range of people and cultures in order for ‘us’, as a multi-cultural world, to relate to each other and form more positive connections.
So let’s start that connection off with a little bit of getting to know each other…
Born in London, the capital and (in my opinion) the ‘life and soul’ of the United Kingdom, I lived there until I was around nine years of age after which my family and I relocated to the country – namely Surrey.
Do I prefer the city or the countryside? I am definitely a country girl at heart. There is always a time and place for a bustling city to explore and get lost in for a few days but my heart will always yearn to return to lush green hills and quiet meadows designed for gentle strolls, hiking and sweet contemplation of life. That doesn’t mean however that I’m not proud to call myself ‘Laaandaan born and bred’ and I am heavily invested in the success of our great isle!
The Surrey Years (as I like to call them), were instrumental in helping to determine and shape the person that I am today. I completed my primary and secondary educations there, I made life-long friends, I fell in love, I survived heartache, I learned to drive and I began to travel.
I love exploring new places
I was bitten by the travel bug very early on in life when, as a teenager, I decided to pursue the musical loves of my life (Boyzone and Westlife) across different cities/countries in order to get lost in a music bubble night after night ‘on tour’. I would transition from quiet country girl to what some would call “queen bee” status whilst away and I loved that feeling of being unrestricted and free to be anybody I wanted to be.
What music interests me the most? Well, you can probably tell from my omission in the last paragraph that I am a pop chick at heart. I have been adoringly “fan girling” over Ronan Keating for over twenty five years now and my heart was shattered into a million pieces when Boyzone decided to break up but at least their was Westlife right?
So yes, I LOVE LOVE LOVE pop! I love lyrics! I love the story that songs tell. There is always a song for every mood! When I’m angry I crank up some Avril Lavigne or Nickleback, when I am sad and heartbroken another of my “fangirl obsessions” is Scouting for Girls, and then there is aways some Taylor Swift designed for ANY occasion!
My love for music
It has enabled me to visit some of the most beautiful cities in the world, Dublin, Zurich Edinburgh, Cardiff, Hamburg and Nashville (to name just a few). It has also blessed me with some of the most beautiful friendships imaginable and so it doesn’t matter where in the world I am, I am always on the hunt for live music (and it doesn’t have to be just pop)
In this year of 2018 I am the ripe old age of 30 (soon to be 31) and I couldn’t be any further away from what I had ‘planned’ my life to be. I had pinpointed the age of 28 for marriage and starting my 2.4 family dynamic but I find myself however, very much single. This has led me to the realisation that, ‘we’, as human beings can’t plan life. We can have ideas and goals to work towards but achieving them requires flexibility and a willingness to embrace uncertainty and change (which I am terrible at).
So what do I want from life?
I want to be happy.
Am I happy right now? Well I have a well paid job, an amazing network of friends and family, I have a car to take me wherever I wish to go in my free time, I have many luxuries in life that many others couldn’t afford but no… I am not happy. Each day feels like Groundhog Day. I feel unfulfilled and uninspired by my life currently. I have a deep desire to break through this ‘Sandra shaped bubble’ and explore the big wide world out there! I want to traverse unknown streets and seek to find something, anything, that my soul is craving and calling out for.
So that’s what I am going to do! I’m going to give it all up! I’m going to continue the soul-searching process by trading my current, predictable and safe life with a nomadic existence for the next year. Starting in Thailand and then heading to Australia, I am leaving it all behind and going solo!
Am I scared? Hell Yes! But the fear of regret is worse… I have to go, I need to evolve, I need to spread my wings and turn from the caterpillar into the butterfly!
So please feel free to relate to my ‘soul searching’ journey as best you see fit. If you have any questions, feedback or just want to explore any of the topics I’ve written about with me please feel free to email me I would love to hear from you!