My good ‘pal’ Ronan Keating said ‘Life is a Rollercoaster’, and he couldn’t be more right. Life for me currently feels like something from the movie Groundhog Day and it simply doesn’t fulfil me anymore.
My life became uninspiring around February of 2017 when my new job role failed to live up to expectations. Each day became a constant battle between accepting where I was and the dreamer in me that wanted more.
Approaching thirty I realised that it was now or never in relation to most working holiday visas criteria. One miserable March morning I sat with my laptop and filled in all of the necessary forms for an Australian Working Holiday Visa. I wanted to change my life situation and I figured there would be no harm in seeing whether I was accepted. The visa was granted within the hour and so it seemed I was decided. The only other choice to make was whether I wanted to rush from one job to another.
I have worked in the childcare sector for nearly seven years now. I always knew I wanted to work with children and so I’m living the dream working as a nanny right?! Wrong!! It’s not all Peppa Pig and drawing pictures. A nanny is essentially a Pseudo parent running a household that isn’t their own. We work long hours (I do 12 hour days plus babysitting) and there is mess (a lot of mess). We deal with dirty nappies, tantrums and a daily repetition of the “no no no” response. A nanny is essentially the glue that holds a family together and it is by no means easy.
So I deserve a break right?!
I decided I needed a trip to unwind and relax before heading off to Oz. I spent hours trawling my favourite travel blogs for inspiration. In the end the choice was pretty easy. I have wanted to explore Thailand for some time now and I haven’t read one blog which expressed regret over going. I began fervently researching my ‘pre-adventure’ to my ‘big adventure’ with as much passion and vigour as somebody with OCD can. Consequently, I had the flights booked within a week of receiving my Visa!
It is an eye opening experience when you begin to tell people of your travel plans. My parents are naturally horrified at the prospect of their daughter travelling for a year. That seems terrible enough to them without me adding Thailand to the mix.
The majority of my friends have been excited and actively encourage me to pursue anything that will make me happy. A small minority have voiced doubts and concerns and tried to dissuade me. All of these opinions and well-meaning pieces of advice are things I will need to overcome if I am to ever set foot on the plane to leave.
Just gotta ride it…
There was (and still is) much for me to consider when deciding to make a big trip like this. These include: costs, location, work desirability and how to tie up all of my loose ends at home whilst I am away. It is fair to say I have been stressed and anxious about the whole thing since its conception.
With only fourteen weeks to go I am beginning to feel a ‘rollercoaster’ of emotions. I am full of excitement, passion, nerves, doubts, anxieties… maybe this deserves a post all of its own.
On that note, I shall bid you adieu. I am off to grab a coffee and get to work writing about the mixed emotions you’ll undoubtedly feel before you head off on a big adventure!!