My good ole pal Ronan often sings about life being a rollercoaster and he couldn’t be more right. My life currently feels like something from the movie Groundhog Day. It simply doesn’t fulfil me anymore and so I have decided to give up on it. Not in a way that I don’t wish to be in existence anymore, no. More of a “I’m taking charge of my life” kind of way.
My life became uninspiring around February of 2017 when my new job role failed to live up to expectations. Each day became a constant battle between accepting where I was and the dreamer in me that wanted more.
Approaching thirty I realised that it was now or never in relation to most working holiday visas criteria. One miserable March morning I sat with my laptop and filled in all of the necessary online forms for an Australian Working holiday Visa. I wanted to change my life situation and I figured there would be no harm in seeing whether I was accepted. I was granted the visa within the hour and so it was decided. The only other choice to make was whether I wanted to rush from one job to another.
I have worked in the childcare sector for nearly seven years in a variety of roles. I always knew I wanted to work with children and so I’m living the dream working as a nanny right?! Wrong!! It’s not all Peppa Pig splashing in muddy puddles and drawing pictures. A nanny is essentially a Pseudo parent running a household that isn’t their own. We work long hours (I do 12 hour days), there is mess (a lot of mess). We deal with dirty nappies, tantrums and repeated “no no no” responses. A nanny is essentially the glue that holds a family together and it is by no means easy.
So I deserve a break right?!
I decided I needed a trip to unwind and relax before heading off to Oz. I spent hours trawling my favourite travel blogs for inspiration. In the end the choice was pretty easy. I have wanted to explore Thailand for some time now and I hadn’t read one blogger who had regretted going. I began fervently researching my ‘pre-adventure’ to my ‘big adventure’ with as much passion and vigour as somebody with OCD can. Consequently, I had the flights booked within a week of receiving my Visa!
It is an eye opening experience when you begin to tell people of your travel plans.
I certainly got a vast array of reactions. My parents are naturally horrified. The prospect of their daughter travelling for a year is terrible enough without me adding Thailand to the mix. Most of my friends have been excited and actively encourage me to pursue anything that could make me happy. Others have voiced doubts and concerns and tried to dissuade me. All of these are things to overcome if I am to ever set foot on the plane to leave.
There was (and still is) much for me to consider when deciding to make a big trip like this. These include: costs, location, work desirability and how to tie up all of my loose ends at home whilst I am away. It is fair to say I have been stressed and anxious about the whole thing since its conception.
With only fourteen weeks to go I am beginning to feel a rollercoaster of emotions. I am full of excitement, passion, nerves, doubts, worries, anxieties… hmm… maybe this deserves a post all of its own.
On that note, I shall bid you adieu. I am off to grab a coffee and get to work writing about the mixed emotions you’ll undoubtedly feel before you head off on a big adventure!!